I got into a fight with some thong underwear the other day and lost. It was a wretched battle and blood was shed on both sides however, a very good thing has come out of it. I have finally surrendered to Granny Pants and have never been more comfortable in my entire life. What was I thinking all these years? These things are amazing. And the cherry on the top of this cake is that your Papa apparently is big fan of the Grannies. Who knew I could be so lucky?? I am married to a man that loves short hair and Granny Panties, on me. It’s like a dream come true. I get to be comfortable. After years of being a physical chameleon and contortionist based on what I hoped would attract a mate, I finally get to be just me and be with the mate of my dreams.
It’s made me think a lot about something. If your Papa and I were to have another child, I know it would be a boy, and I know he would be just like his Dad and there is a huge part of me that feels like I would be doing some sweet little girl out there a ginormous disservice by not bringing him into the world so she can be loved by him. I would never want to deprive another of this amazing experience. Maybe I am crazy? I am almost 38 and we swore we’d only have one, so we could still travel and have a life, and maybe we still will. But it’s hard being married to someone so amazing and not want to co-create with him. It just feels like the most natural right thing to do.
But maybe I should just wait and see how we do with you, my little Pony girl. I am getting ahead of the game here. I haven’t even had you yet and look at me, I’m already 3 years down the road. It’s all about staying present, not one of my forte’s.
You had the hiccups this morning. It was super cute. I love feeling you kick and squirm and do the robot dance inside of my belly. It makes me glow all over.
I organized your clothes and room yesterday, you have already acquired quite the adorable wardrobe. I wanted to cry folding your onesies. I can’t believe how small they are.
You have some amazing Aunties that can’t wait to meet you. And another little girl that was just born not too long ago- her name is Brixton and her mommy is Mimi. You are going to love them, I just know it.
I gotta run to work now. I’ve procrastinated enough and you just kicked the crap out of me- so here we go.
I love you Pony girl. More than you will ever know.